So I (didn't) fail Calculus again...

[cambertian]

I'm terrible at college. I got an F in a class I thought I was good at, got withdrawn from the same English class TWICE, and have yet to turn in a final on the day it was actually due.
I really don't want to go anymore. I'd literally rather have a standard day-job. And yet, my parents are forcing me to keep going. I don't understand it...

Please help me.

[DoomRater]

Your parents are wasting money on you? Also, how are you being forced to keep going? Aren't you over 18 by now and legally able to do whatever you desire?

[cambertian]

Your parents are wasting money on you? Also, how are you being forced to keep going? Aren't you over 18 by now and legally able to do whatever you desire?

I heard that they have to pay back student loans immediately after I'm through, and they're often living paycheck-to-paycheck, so that might be why they're "wasting" money.

I'm also on the autistic spectrum (Asperger's), so my parents do most of the talking/arranging in my life. That often means suppressing some of my needs.

I'll probably have to start taking action myself, but I'm afraid of triggering my parents.

[Hellstorm Archon]

Ok, since it's been well over a month since this happened, I might as well post an update now. Better late than never, heh.

After a few emails to the professor, she finally managed to email me back (like I said, well over a month ago). Just like with any other exam I took in her class, she will only take the higher of the two exam scores. In other words, I passed with a final grade of a B.

However, this whole situation has caused me to seriously evaluate my college choices. I found myself not quite having the same drive as I once did a couple of years ago when it comes to computer science. I mean, I'm well aware of the fact that college will not get any easier, but unless I change my path, this next fall semester could very well be the toughest I'll ever have to go through, but I certainly don't want to leave myself as stressed as I did last fall semester.

Previously, I was considering changing to political science, but I was told that I'll have to be extremely argumentative, but I just enjoyed learning of politics, despite my intense dislike of the current political landscape.
Over time, I started to develop a penchant for creative writing, so there could be a nice alternative career. In fact, my teaching assistant for my philosophy class even commented on how creative my essays would get, which were actually little vignettes which connected together to create this cryptic cyberpunk horror story.
Originally before I made my decision on computer science, I was considering doing visual arts and graphic design. Graphic design in high school granted me access to Photoshop, which allowed me to work wonders with stuff, and that's the reason I could do more advanced spritework and texture work for Doom, among other things. Either of these choices would allow me to flex my creative muscles more, but there's only one fatal flaw: they don't have much money behind them, unlike computer science. With computer science, I can land a job that could get me a definite salary and possibly have me set for life, not to mention the possibility of having the know-how to enter game development. With something like visual arts or graphic design, I may not get the kind of money that I would require in order to possibly buy my own house or pay my bills.

Not only that, I plan on doing something not a lot of people expect. As a major hobby, I plan on becoming an Internet reviewer, where I'll review movies, games, and mods. Once I possibly get enough of a following and enough views, I'll even potentially set up a Patreon for requests involving commercial products, not mods. I mention this as a major hobby because doing something like this can take up a surprising amount of time, and it'll eat up much of my week, considering my less-than-stellar time management skills. If I manage to pull this one off, I could just have this as my full-time job.

Your parents are wasting money on you? Also, how are you being forced to keep going? Aren't you over 18 by now and legally able to do whatever you desire?

I heard that they have to pay back student loans immediately after I'm through, and they're often living paycheck-to-paycheck, so that might be why they're "wasting" money.

I'm also on the autistic spectrum (Asperger's), so my parents do most of the talking/arranging in my life. That often means suppressing some of my needs.

I'll probably have to start taking action myself, but I'm afraid of triggering my parents.

It's ok dude, I know EXACTLY how that feels. I remember my Intro to C class, I thought I was doing supremely well, but then I found out I had a final grade of a C+. Just hang in there, you'll make it somehow. If it helps for you, I have Aspergers too.

In any case, I'd like to really thank you guys. You've given me a surprising amount of resources and resolve for this, and yeah, things do have a tendency to work out for the best.