This is a bit embarrassing but while the situation is not as bad as before unfortunately i still need help. I've been working on my ports nearly fulltime and i'm still unemployed. I've been repairing computers as well. Keeping me busy and focused has definitely helped and that means less suffering. The tinnitus is not getting better and i've been told it could be permanent or not, i need to get used to it but that's not possible right now. I sleep with a cushion next to me so i lay on the more damaged ear, if not i wake up with a strong buzzing crying and kicking i guess trying to scape somehow.
I've added another medical report, they made a tunnitus pitch match or something but they did it wrong and they exposed me to a 90 db very strong sound to measure masking, i don't think that makes sense. That sound was not similar enough to mine. I'm feeling much worse today but it should get a bit better in a few days they told me.
According to a test my tinnitus is severe, bad news i thought it was moderate.

They're sending me to the psychiatrist for an evaluation.
My father has told me he can't help me this month, he divorced and his new wife doesn't want him to do it and they have another child, their situation is not bad at all tough.
Today was our marriage anniversary but i asked yesterday and my wife told me she didn't remember the date, she is so sad she doesn't feel like doing anything and i really wanted to do something special today, this makes me feel even worse and very sad.
The source ports are nearly done and will be released anyway but if you want to help i'd really appreciate it guys. Thanks very much!
This time i'm only asking for half the amount and i think that's fair, 150€ to help to pay this month's mortgage and all the bills. I should pay the insurance of my motorbike, i use it for work but i don't think i'll do it, i have one month respite anyway. Regards.
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